my heart swoons. today you had your first dance class ever. oh my baby girl.. how are you so big?? i promise it was just yesterday i found out i was expecting you, and now you are frilling about a dance studio, pointing you toes, tip-toeing across the floor, and ending it all with a twirl and curtsey. you have been so excited for "dance class', and today when we finally arrived you waddled over to your dot so proud and happy. those tiny slippers, your froofy bum..
you melt me.
i sent a video to your daddy and even he couldn't help getting teary. you make us so proud. you are so content being just you, and i couldn't adore you more.
it's seems i have lost my blogging bug for the time being.
i don't know... the shenanigans going on in our day-to-day lives just don't seem exactly fun and witty...
nothing in my life is much busier, but it all feels A LOT crazier. i hate it when dustin is in school.
my week drags and drags. i hate it when the girls don't see him for nearly 72 hours in a row, and i hate how that it turn forces them to prefer me over him. he tries to help when he can, but both girls scream and cry for mama and usually by the time we seemed to have worked it out so we both feel nice and loved by all, the whole cycle starts over again. the thing is, i don't really mind it. but i want to mind it. it also postpones my time to actually do any work photography related, throwing me even more behind than i normally function. i've set a new goal in my life to be in bed by mid-night. this is a huge step for me. i have suffered insomnia since i was a little girl. i go in and out of sleeping funks and it just seems that for the past almost 2 years i have hardly been able to sleep at all. yes, yes... the waking babies do play a major part, but even when i reeeaally, really try to get some decent rest i just can't. period.
for a good while there it worked out quite nicely with the budding photography business and all. i was mom by day, and photographer by night... all night. 3-4 AM were considered normal bed times, and i could book 4-5 shoots/week with a turn around of proofed and polished photos in about a week. purdy darn good if you ask me..
but those lost zzz' s and hours of proofing into the wee hours did not come without a price. 1+ years of that night after night seem to have finally caught up with me, and i just feel exhausted. not particularly tired, but just generally weary. my joints ache, i get ornery much quicker and from the hours of 8AM-12PM i am a zombie. i have finally decided to put the cabosh to such non-sense. midnight bed-time feels like a dream, and with BOTH babies finally sleeping through the night.. well, i am slowly becoming a human again. but i fear it may be at the price of a booming photography business. i am convinced any decent photographer must have figured out burning the candle at both ends, and i am convinced i am entirely jealous of such knowledge and skill.
only in dreams...
if you are still waiting on pictures from yours truly, please know i am working as quickly as i possibly can right now, and i do apologize so.
and so enough of that.
i all of the sudden do feel like i have more to write and blog about... you know, crazy dealings and mishaps with the little ladies of the house.
but alas the previous problem at hand presents itself,